Appointment One, The Start Of My Infertility Journey
It’s awful to say but walking into that first OB appointment back in 2010 was hard.
I felt like a failure. I was embarrassed, ashamed, nervous, and afraid to get my hopes up.
Which is sad because we hadn’t really taken any steps to figure out what might be going on. I had let things go for over a year, and every month just beat me down further and further.
The OB was charming and kind. I really liked her but ultimately, I was disappointed after the first appointment because I felt like we weren’t making any forward momentum. She wanted me to start tracking everything on a calendar for at least 3 months and then come back and see her. Now, when that clock starts ticking it gets LOUD. And three months felt like forever.
I was now starting to see babies and pregnant women seemingly everywhere. It felt like every commercial or TV show was trying to make me feel worse. I couldn’t carry on a conversation with a new mom or pregnant client without wanting to simultaneously scream and cry.
I was now starting to see babies and pregnant women seemingly everywhere. It felt like every commercial or TV show was trying to make me feel worse. I couldn’t carry on a conversation with a new mom or pregnant client without wanting to simultaneously scream and cry.
For us, several months of Chlomid didn’t work.
My OB suggested an endoscopy to check for endometriosis.
I hadn’t heard of it before but had always had very heavy periods with a lot of cramping the first few days.
If you’re not familiar, endometriosis according to the Mayo Clinic is “an often-painful condition in which tissue that is similar to the inner lining of the uterus grows outside the uterus. It often affects the ovaries, fallopian tubes and the tissue lining the pelvis. Rarely, endometriosis growths may be found beyond the area where pelvic organs are located.” If you want to read more, and see if you might fit some of the symptoms you should check out, https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/endometriosis for more information.
I wasn’t sure if this was what I had, but I had nothing to lose by moving forward with the endoscopy and finding out. This felt like we were getting something done. Finally!
Talk soon,
