WARNING

 

The video attached below will punch you in the feels, it also contains images of me post-surgery that some viewers may be disturbed by. There are surgical incisions, drains and nipple (intentionally singular as I only have the one).

 

Where It All Started.  IVF, Breast Cancer and Life Afterwards.

 

 

I’ve been going through a bunch of old pictures and videos here working on recreating timelines for us all.  And, it’s just amazing…how you think you’re healed, you think you’ve processed, and really dealt with everything and then these images just drop you right back in those moments. 

It’s not even that it’s all bad, sometimes it’s an overwhelming feeling of gratitude and luck… just complete awe for what our bodies are capable of.

 

It still punches me right in the feels!  I just watched the video that Beth (BethOlsonCreative.com) and Amber Arpin (www.amberarpin.com) created for me when we did our photo shoot a few years ago, and I don’t know if it’s the combination of the pictures and the video with the music that she chose… but I can’t watch it without crying! And I know what’s coming!

There are no surprises, but it still gets me.

 That’s one of the main reasons I wanted to do the project in the first place. It was important to me to really capture those moments.  I had a friend ask me once why I chose to take photos that, honestly, some people find disturbing. 

I felt so freaking EMPOWERED by what my body had been through. 

Did I want to keep my crevice (sans boob)  forever, no.  Not at all.  Did I think it was badass and super cool what not only my body was capable of, but the ingenuity of my doc and surgical team?!  Heck yeah.  And I never wanted to forget that feeling. 

These amazing women (Beth and Amber) sat with me and brainstormed and together we created something really beautiful to help me never forget.  It worked.

So, my advice to you, if this is something you’re going through or someone you love is going through, document it. Because you might not want to look at it right away… but someday you might want to, and it’s a beautiful option to have.

That’s all for now. 

 

Talk soon,